Fall used to be one of my favorite times of the year. I am a jeans and sweatshirt kind of girl and find the cooling weather so cozy and comforting. I love the beautiful colors of the autumn leaves. I love the flavors of fall - caramel, apple cider and PUMPKIN everything. I used to love that it meant school was starting. I actually looked forward to school shopping - clothes and yes even school supplies. Each year I waited anxiously to meet my new class. I loved seeing my students' smiles on the first day of school and getting to know each of them. They all have their own sparkle. I love my students, still do, always will. But now that I choose to stay at home with my kids, who I happen to think are pretty cool little people and now that two of them are old enough to go to school, fall isn't my season anymore. Blech! Fall means I have to share them with the rest of the world. Which is awesome for the rest of the world, but stinks for me. Don't get me wrong, I want them to make their mark and grace this world with their blessings and the many gifts God has given them but I miss them just the same. Motherhood can be terribly lonely. Yesterday was Monday. Monday's always a little bit of a sad kind of day. Not because of the reasons you might think. It's not because of the crazy mornings, or making their lunches, or making sure backpacks are packed and everyone is all ready for their day. That part I actually kind of like - because the crazy involves my kids. It's actually the quiet that comes after they've left that leaves my heart heavy. I miss them and count just about every minute until I get to pick them up after school. Something must be wrong with me. I know their are plenty of moms out there that can't wait for the break. I figure I will have plenty of time for that break after they graduate. So what did I do yesterday? Instead of wallowing in my quiet little home, I put on my big girl pants, snuggled my little girl for a bit and went a little pumpkin crazy. I found all sorts of swoon worthy pumpkin recipes that I just had to share with you all (lucky you) because I couldn't let you miss them. What kind of friend would that make me? Don't they all look amazing? This is my new fall bucket list. I think fall just got a little happier. After all life will be what you make of it... right?